big yellow ball

yes, that's right. i just said big, yellow, and ball. what is this you might ask? well, duh! a big yellow ball! ok, it's an exercise ball before they were big. it rocks! i haven't lived with it in years because i just didn't have room in my apartment for it. and we didn't move with it, and i didn't know my fiance's parents were bringing a small u-haul when we moved to the house. so my mom, being the cool person she is, knows that i miss it and shipped it to me! i've had it for about a month now. my fiance was not happy to see it. he just doesn't understand. so he banned it to the basement where all the other weights are that we don't use. so i got it and now use it as my chair for the computer! i don't know what he thinks of it, but i do see him sitting on it. even just sitting here i can work muscles i forgot i had! i LOVE it! i can bounce, and roll, and tilt, and that sound's very kinky. however, i love it and have been so happy to have it back in my life! and since we are a higher altitute, it doesn't need new air, whereas in ohio it was getting a little flat! it rocks! this could be why my lower back hurts as well. that's ok. my muscles down there will get better and it will be all good! bouncey bouncey bouncey. hehe! it's like being a kid again! and it's great for balance. i like to sit indian style (not recommended unless you have something close to grab real quick) and trying to balance that way. not too good at it yet. but i will get there! and i'll get my core all going and stuff! hehe! i just thought i would share my small pleasure with my big yellow ball!
and to update you from my crappy day, it was just a crappy week, and now it is the weekend and hopefully next week will be a little calmer. i hate being a new person and not remembering things. anyway, happy weekend! hoping we will take a bike ride through the mountains and take pictures of the changing leaves! have to buy a new disposable since we can't get a digital yet and we never got around to registering one. it will be all good though. i'll get one soon. just the right one for taking perfect outdoor pictures. and one that will capture the beautiful sunsets behind the mountains. yeah, the beaches are nice, but they just don't shoot the rays the same way mountains do. maybe someday i'll describe such a beautiful sunset. 22 days!

day for staying home

today is one of those days that i should've stayed home. i am having a really crappy day at work. i've found way too many errors for my comfort. which isn't much. i decided to take a lunch break now. yeah, little late, but i'm really not supposed to not take a lunch or leave early. besides, i start my seasonal job tonight and with the mood i'm in, i'll have to shop to kill the time. not good. so i thought i would vent in my blog. blog blog blog. i would rather be anywhere else than right here right now. and i don't want to leave, because i might not come back. i must resist looking at my work email. i don't need any more problems. good thing i sit in the back. easier to cry and not have anyone see me. it's just one of those days. and i'm homesick again. this really sucks! at least my boss here is a little more understanding on screwing up than my old one. she at least understands that it happens and it will be ok. although i don't feel ok. i'm not even in the mood to eat my sandwich. i had half a breakfast burrito. that was a waste. it wasn't very good. should've gotten syrup. had two pepsis. again, isn't good cause i won't fit in my dress. i should've stayed home. but then, someone else would have to figure out my problems, and then i would have to hear about it when i got back, and i would feel even more bad that they had to deal with it. i just wouldn't win. i should've known it was going to be a bad day when i drempt about my old boss. AAAAHHHHH!!! nothing good comes when she is around. sigh. tomorrow is another day. hopefully better!

new blog look!

so do you like? i like. no, the picture is not me. thank you sony and johng for the links off your blog. little did you know huh! now i just have to play a little more when i find time in the insane world i decided to make right now. but for now, this will work! i'm quite proud of myself that i could figure out where to put them. may be simple to most people, but this is not my forte, that's music. not computers. anyway, new look, new me! like how my future name is already up? i just had to! i even got a stamp at work that has my new initial on it so they wouldn't have to get a new one. i'm going to try to get rid of my last name as much as possible! ok, totally changed the subject. let me know what you think! i know it's dark, but it's fun! all the words are bright! like my personality! boy am i moody! one blog i'm all homesick, next blog i'm all happy! still homesick, but i know i will see a lot of my friends in 25 days, 19 hours and 7 minutes! but who's counting. really! love ya! big kisses!

am i insane?

am i really? am i trying to see how much i can jam in one month? so i got a part time job. actually it's seasonal. but if i like and if they like me, it could stay after the holidays. that is going to be at least a couple days a week. i would like to get 20 hours in. my personal business is finally on a role. i have two parties in the next couple weeks. and some where in all that i have to find a time to finish the programs (which you are going to love!) finish the place cards as the rsvps come in, meet with the priest one more time here, and i don' t even know what else i have to do! i don't have much left to do for the wedding, but it's all running around inside my head. so dizzy! so, let's take a trip down insanity lane of this past year. let's see. got engaged. moved across country in less than a month from that. plan a wedding, job search. find a terrible job, continue job searching, house searching. find house, still looking for new job. find new job, move into house. get stampin up going. start new part time job, get married. go on honeymoon. still happy in job and house and with fiance - which is a good thing! and that leaves two months to convince my mom to come out here for christmas. oh, so that would mean that we would have to still christmas shop, stay in part-time job and do shows. WHEW! are you tired? me too! i'm going to be so bored next year! i know what i'll do! THEATRE! yeay! oh, and by the way:
GO BUCKS!

Home-sick

yeay ohio! i know not a lot of people like ohio. even ohioans! but for some reason i do. maybe because it's home. no matter where i live, it will always be home. even in my family moves out of state, it will still be home. even when all my friends there forget about me and we all move on different ways, it will still be home. yep. pretty homesick lately. and some people who said they will be at my wedding, aren't coming. it's like the only time they are going to see me! might be the last time some people will see me! kinda hurts. by the way Mr. Sony, JohnG beat you on the RSVP as well as my comments! are you getting yours in? you better! don't make me have to add you to my hitlist! sorry, digress. i feel really bad that my one friend was not invited because someone doesn't like him and want him at the wedding. and both his roommates are invited. i really hate doing that. and i just miss my friends while they are still friends! i miss going to theatre shows to support them. i miss going out afterwards till all hours of the night with them. i miss my friend's parties. i miss going to chick flicks. i miss girls' night. i miss the trees. i miss max and ermas. i just want everyone and everything to move out here! the odds of that are slim to none i know. i miss my friends babies. i haven't even seen one yet! i know i'll make friends out here. and i'll have a new set of theatre peopel. and yes, i do have some friends, but they just aren't the same. and my fiance isn' t making much effort in finding someone to hang out with. not that i mind him home with me, i just wish he would find someone to go see guy movies with and stuff! i'll see some, but i'm sure it's not the same. just like him seeing a girly movie! anyway, just lonely and homesick. 30 more days and i'll be home but i won't get to see many people. hang out like i used to. i guess it's just part of life.