interesting

isn't it interesting that i find out about my friend's baby via an email forward? we were writing back and forth right up to the delivery, then POOF! no more friend. did she have the baby? is she ok? is the baby ok? what happened? none of my friends inform me. i'm sure they think she would've told me since we were at one point inseperable. i tried calling her. she never picks up, so i quit calling her. i'm not going to email her. i don't know when she will be back to work, and since i don't have her home email, i just don't email. over 3 months later, i'm assuming she had the baby. they wouldn't let her carry it that long. it's just not healthy! so a couple days ago, i get an email from her! oh finally! she's going to tell me all the exciting news of her new little one! WRONG! it's a forward. and it's one of those forwards where you fill in your own information, like "what are you wearing right now?" i don't even open it. THIS is how my who i thought was friend is going to tell me she had her baby? i unfortunately have my email at work set up to where you can read part of the email. i see "mommy", she's obviously had it. then i see the "what is your favorite thing to do" and the first one has a boy's name, and it's not her husband. that's the second favorite thing. so i'm assuming this is the new little one. i hated to delete it, but come on! we used to be really close! then i move across country, out of every loop in ohio, and she doesn't have the decentcy to call or even email me about the baby, something she was very excited about? hmmm... makes me wonder. was i ever a true friend? i think at one point i was, but somewhere in the brief friendship, i somehow floated out of friendship, then i moved. i don't know if i did something that offended her? i have no idea. so i guess if she really misses me as she says in emails, she will one day email me or call (highly unlikely) and tell me about the baby. or maybe i'll find out in a christmas card. i am ending now. i have rehearsal. i just had to vent. and if you know who i am talking about, please do not pass on my frustration. if she's truly a friend, she will write, right? interesting...

figures...

got my CP newsletter today from ohio. I was excited to see my friend on the cover. then i open it up and see that my friend's show from march was invited to a competition (or something good) and then i see my buds are all in the same show, snaps to you! then i see auditions. "you're a good man charlie brown". figures. i have been dying to do this show, and now that i've been away, the one theatre i always did stuff in is now doing it! figures. i'm a little far to audition. oh well. maybe it will eventually get put on out here... sigh...

late at night

isn't it strange how, when your body can barely stay awake to finish the next chapter in the book, you put the book down, and try to go to sleep, and two hours later you find yourself more awake than you had been all day? did that sentence even make sense? yeah, i don't care. i've had all these thoughts jumping all over the place. and i can't pick a happy one to focus on and go to sleep. here are some of my crazy thoughts/memories.
i was thinking about my friend's wedding this coming july. i wonder if she's going to ask me to be in it. how should i make her thank you cards?
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i want to get married again. redo a few things i didn't like. like laughing in the middle of the ceremony. yeah that was embarrassing! what they didn't know was snot also shot out of my nose as well, since i was so happy i was a little (ok a lot) teary! i wish more people came that said they did. the reception was not set up how i told my mom i wanted it. i could go with a different photographer as well. yeah, that laugh was embarrassing.
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i want to go back to school. think they will accept a 30 something in the music theatre dept? what about web design? maybe CSU? that might be too far...
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HAHA! michigan got slaughtered! and it's all over even CO's news! Buckeyes won!
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i want to go to new york. can i go to ny and columbus? plus the wedding and a vacation? i need to get stuff from my mom's house (she's moving). wonder if my friend will go with me. oh i so don't want to drive through kansas.
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i want a dog
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i should go email my friend. i really want to go to ny. i should write my blog, work on my story. clean my office.
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i should work on wedding invitations for stampin up so i can get some business doing that! how should i set it up? should i use one color? (if only you could see the images in my head right now) i really need to move the tv to the other side of the desk.

yeah, i have nothing on my mind. can you tell? yeah, i know, it didn't take you two hours to read, but some of them were repeated. i think i left out some stuff too. i think there were even times i wasn't thinking, i was just restless. it's a crazy world after dark. strange things happen. the mind is completely different. and i could go on with a bunch more thoughts, but if i did that, this blog would be very long.
by the way BURTON, still waiting on that other piece of excitement! not fair for us who live far far away! oh and congrats JohnG and Burton on being cast! some day i'll be back again to see you guys on stage this time! yeah, don't know when that will be though.
sleep well world. try not to let your crazy thoughts overtake your mind as you try to slip quietly into peacefulness, even if it's only for a couple hours. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz