Unit 1 Female

have i found my curtain players away from home? i have auditioned again, and have been cast again at the same theatre where i did diviners! could this be my theatre away from home? we shall see... still itching for that musical though. burton, you would like this show. perhaps you've heard? "the Deep Beep-Beep" seven short plays written to show what happened during the launch of sputnik. so, my play is a drama, but there's one with star trek which is just hystarical! i'm a pilot. i know nothing of the script, as we have not started rehearsals yet. but i'm glad to be back on stage, even if it's just 15 minutes. i won't be the only one. so that makes me feel better. we even have a performance at a planeterium! how cool will that be? so yeah. have that going on and that's about it. rehearsals will be minimal, so i guess that's good! one more local referance for when i audition for the musical in the spring in longmont!
oh yeah! speaking of longmont, my husband and i are going to join the Y in longmont, and i'm hoping to take up swing lessons in the month of Sept. and voice lessons if possible. we'll see how i am financially. so i'm going to take kick boxing and another aerobics class with my neighbor at the Y. going to start swimming again! will probably only be able to do a 500 (that's 26 laps) since i'm so out of shape! and now when it gets colder my husband can still train for marathons (i think he's hooked) by running on the indoor track. so we shall see what will happen with this, and hopefully i'll actually stick to doing something. by the way, should you read this tonight, supposedly mars is supposed to be by the moon at 12:30 tonight. don't know what time zone it is though. so we are starting at 10:30, provided the clouds go away.

the series is over

if you've noticed to the right, i still had harry potter book 6 up. well, i was not able to go update in a while. since i was unsuccessful at falling back to sleep after being woken by my damn cat crying in our bedroom, i thought i would clean it up. i have finished the series and have moved on to an adult book before i hunt down the third eragon book ( and yes, i know i spelled that wrong) which i know is coming out soon because the second book has gone to paperback. anyway, i am not going to say anything about the books, in case you are reading, or hope to read the last book. i will say though, i don't recommend reading all 7 in a row. by the time you get to the last book you just want it to end. it's a good book, i've just been reading it since february and my husband started shortly after. we are slightly burnt out, and dreaming about harry potter. not a good sign.
i will say how interesting it is that bloggers take ideas from other bloggers. me included! i took the counter and locator from my friends blogs, and they have started including books they are reading. i just think it's neat how this cyber world our blogs live in obsorb features to make thier blogs more interesting. i'm just proud of myself for figuring it out on my own (with the help of my brother) and then being an inspiration to others to do the same! i'm usually the follower, not the leader. yeah, i know, not a good place to be, but i do follow more than i should lead.
anywho-the books are read.

go back to sleep

i've decided to write at lunch today. today is not a good day for me. not sure why. ok, i have some issues that came up that have really pissed me off, more at the fact that i screwed it up, than someone yelling at me. maybe some of it is from the lack of sleep. haven't had a good nights sleep since vacation. wait, was i on vacation? maybe it's a lot of things and they have hit at once so i am having a hard time seperating things. i woke up this morning not wanting to go to work. i just wanted to go back to sleep and sleep ALL DAY for the next 5 days. that should've been the sign that it was going to be a crappy day. forgot we had this breakfast with HR and i looked like such a bumb today. oh well. then we had to say who was our biggest influence and i said my brother through major tears. i actually couldn't even get it out. but then i didn't explain why, but most of them know so it was ok. so now i keep thinking of that (not that that is what is putting me in a bad mood) then i get back to my desk and my supervisor emailed me on this issue and basically made me feel like i was the darkest crayon in the box. she even reminded me of the tip, and i explained to her at least two times that i didn't know it was suchnsuch (confidential payroll stuff, sorry) and that it wasn't communicated to me that way so i was just doing what i have bene trained on. and when she sent me the tip i told her that yeah, i might not be the brightest crayon in the box but i did know what tip. i probably shouldn't have said what i did, but i'm so tired of being treated like that. she does it to me all the time. and then they wonder why i'm always so hard on myself. i'll probably get written up or talked to this afternoon. but i don't care. i just don't care. there are other factors behind this issue that had me stirred up as well, so, yeah. i think i just need to go to sleep and rejuvinate my life.
on a side note, there is this guy that always parks his car outside my window and it cracks me up. he has two cars. one is very old and not even a classic or kept up well. then he has this probably 90's saturn station wagon. what is funny about this guy is that he puts a car cover over it. he even has a lock for it. ok, really? oh if i had a picture. he will come out at lunch or something and debate with himself if he should put the cover on, leave the cover on, take the cover off. he'll walk away, then walk back, then walk away again, then walk back. and just stare at his car. sometimes he walks all around it. sometimes when it's windy, the entire cover is over the front hood of the car. since it has a wire that goes underneith it that locks it, it doesn't blow off. it get's stuck in the tires. it's very amusing. his saturn has an atennea, and so it looks like this big tent.
i just want to go home. i really can't because things were missed on the payroll (ironically not my fault) and i have to do about 20 manual checks. jealous aren't you! so i guess i'll end my lunch, suffer through the day, and hope tonight i sleep the entire night (HA!) and have a better day tomorrow. after all! it will be friday! *sigh*

2:18

yes, that would be the time that my awesome husband ran 13.1 miles!!!! yes, my husband completed his first half marathon last saturday in the mountains! i did not run it. i stayed in the car and let my friend drive along and stop occationally to cheer them on. then a little over two hours later, he crossed the finish line! he ran the whole way! i'm so proud of him! after the run we went up to the top of mt evans, which we have not been to yet. it was over 14,000 ft. there was this place that used to be a lodge or restaurant or something, but in the 70's there was a propaine explosition and all that is left is the stone walls. you can even still see the burnt wood! it was really cool! it was a long day, but it was fun! now my husband wants to run the full marathon in denver in october. so after his rest this week, he will be back training even harder! so i just had to brag about my husband and how proud i am of him!!!

always average

so i was hoping this would be a happy and exciting blog, but it's not going to be. i auditioned for Damn Yankees this weekend and was not cast. and she continued to tell me on the voice mail that they did enjoy my audition, they just ran out of good roles.but they really want me to come back and audition for Fiddler in the spring where there are more roles available.ARG! ok, i was going to be happy with just a dancer, but i didn't even get that. and unfortunately it was a voice mail, so i was unable to ask just how personal was that voice mail? do they really want me to come back, where they really trying to cast me or is that what they told everyone? of course a theatre's going to want people to keep auditioning. whether they are good or not. this is the second musical i have not been able to get cast in. and what makes it more frustrating is i have been cast in every other musical i have auditioned for. it's days like these i wish i was a guy, where the competition is not as threatening. i would probably be cast if i was a guy. i'm just tired of being that average person. i'm even like that at work, but i won't get into that. just borderline of getting a role, but there's just that one person who is slightly better than me. ARG! i wish my husband would get a big raise so i could go back and get a degree in theatre. THEN i might actually be that person who just beat out the average girl. but i'm getting old. and i keep thinking i'm still young enough. but really, i'm not. i know, just keep trying. i've been doing that my whole life and never seem to cross that line. ok, i've been able to cross it once, when i was a lead, but there were three females. i've been pushed back so far now though, i don't know if i will ever get to that spot again. i want to be that person that everyone thinks they won't get in becuase i will get the role. i want to be that threat. but i'm not. i'm just average...