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i was checking out my blog today, and i noticed something. it is very boring! i don't have links, i don't have my friends blogs on, i don't have a profile... it's just boring! i guess it's good that not a lot of people (from what i assume) view it. yeah, some of my blogs may be entertaining in some way or another, but really? just boring. and i'm too stupid (computerwise) to figure out how to change things, or how to add things, or whatever. i don't want to post my picture. i don't want to post "my life" in a profile. i just don't think people need to know what i look like or what my life was like, or what i do for a living, or my interests. i don't know. it just seems to be one of those days. actually, i've kinda been in a slump all week! yeah, my wedding may be 50 days, 19 hours and 51 minutes away, and i should be excited about that. i am, i'm just having the slumps. and i've quit working out. i should've transfered when i was there, but i didn't. i said i'll wait till the end of the month. they are having this bingo thing and i just wanted to win something, however, it's 15 minutes the opposite way from my house when i get off the highway. i was going to go today, but there was an accident. so now that i have not gone, and have been having ice cream every day, my belly is not of it's best figure! and i can't get big there or i will not fit in the dress! this is most of my slump. i can't diet. it just doesn't work for me. i don't like the things you are supposed to eat. i just don't. and i'm not going to suffer just to lose weight. then i will binge and get a big belly again. and don't even get me started on my arms. i'm going to be flying down the aisle (and if you two say anything at the wedding, don't think i won't hit you at the church!). i'm just miserable. i just don't even want to eat. yeah, i know that will do a lot of good too! and now at my new job we aren't supposed to work overtime. so i get home before 5. my fiance still gets home so much later. i'm just so bored! i want to do theatre, but who is going to cast someone who is going to miss a week and a half of rehearsals a week before opening? no one. unless i was that good they just had to. but i'm not. don't get me wrong, there are a lot of good things going on right now. just this week, blah. i haven't even signed up for benefits! what's wrong with me? well, i shall continue my slump and won't slump anymore on you. *sigh*

it's getting closer!!!!

HEHE! getting excited! the wedding is less than two months away! we are getting rsvps (have you turned yours in yet? didn't think so!) i just ordered my fiance's ring! what do you think?

yeah, i like it too. i hope he likes it! i know he will like it. and if he wants a different one, then we can get a different one down the road. after i pay this one off. i'm so excited! i have mentioned that yet? yeah, i'm probably going to drive you guys crazy over the next couple months! oh, and if you are wondering the outcome of the "in-laws" the uncles are being invited. much to my dismay. we hadn't talked about it, and they called while we were in a store and he told them right then that we just had to find the stuff again to make the invitations, and had them send us the addresses. boy did he get a look from me! then when he got off the phone, he told me it was all politics. we didn't really have a choice, even though she said we did. not too happy about this! so they better hope they don't really come, or if they do that there is enough room. otherwise, we are putting them at their table and it will be crowded! so that is all the drama that is going on and hopefully that will be it! my mom finished my dress! she's so awesome! we have our program set up for the most part! just one page to figure out! i'm going to work on the cover today and see if we can get it how we want from a printing place. we won't be able to do it on ours. and we will be making those, so that is the last thing i have to make until i go home! =) which will be thursday for those who are wondering, but probably won't be able to see you until the wedding! man i miss everyone! that is going to be the one downfall for the wedding. i won't be able to really spend lots of time with everyone! but i will be married to the most wonderful man that can ever exist! i'm sure everyone says that about their other serious half! but to them it is true! he is the most wonderful man for me! he's not meant for anyone else! =) and he's going to look so good! i'm just going to want to eat him up right away! we have to take these "classes" with the church (not as bad as catholic) and the priest has said every time he can tell we are truly in love. that we really love each other. i'm sure they get couples that they aren't sure are going to make it or not, but i guess it's pretty obvious with us. i mean i do love him very much (i'm really just marrying him for his last name - hehe) as he does me, but i guess it still shows after 7 years when we are around people. we don't notice, but i guess there is something there that we don't see. anyway, now that i've gotten all mushy i guess that's all that i really have to say right now! except i'm so excited!!!!!!! can't wait to see you (you know who you are!!!) yeay!

accidents

no i wasn't in an accident, but there was one on the way home from work today. and let me just tell you. if the accident is on the other side of the median by like 100 yards you don't need to slow down! there is a barrier there to avoid the accident from coming over to the other side!
so i'm driving home from work today. the exit before mine starts to back up. i think nothing of it since it merges to two lanes, and then there are cars coming on the highway after the bridge. usually it then breaks up. not today! i always seem to hit thicker traffic there and every day, i wonder why i didn't get off the exit before and take the service road home. oh yeah, cause the highway is 75 and the service road is 55. except when there is an accident on the OTHER SIDE! come on people! don't you know you are backing up traffic when you slow down to look? do you really think the people on the other side want you to look at their stupidity (if they caused the accident) or thier frustrations of a broken car? respect the accident people! they don't stop and stare at you! now i can understand if the accident and the traffic is on the same side. just to make sure no one gets hurt. i've learned to be patient with those. but when it is on the other side? have i mentioned that bothers me? just checking. that's all i have to say today. just venting about that. i've done a few vents on here! maybe soon i will have a happy one! not that i'm not happy, just have things to vent on.
countdown to wedding: 65 days, 20 hours, 18 minutes. but who's counting. =)

all on the in-laws

let me just say, i am so frustrated right now with my fiance's mom, it isn't even funny. first off, i didn't want kids at the wedding. except my flowergirl, since she's in the wedding. well, we now have an 18th month old coming... ok, i need to start from the top...
we had our wedding list ready to go. we had all the invitations made. all envelopes were addressed. we were just waiting till it got closer to send them out. (they've been ready since march). i told my fiance they are done and we aren't inviting anyone else. well, then his mom kinda guilts us into inviting her three sisters in which she is close to, i've NEVER met, and i don't even know how often they have seen my fiance, but it's not much. seeing as one lives in hawaii, one lives in NC and one lives far into PA. SO i have to make more invites. not that i minded, but i thought we were done. i had my fiance get the names of everyone from each family. knowing they had kids, but i thought they were all teens. when his parents came out to help us move, she asked if there were going to be any babies, and who was going to watch them. i said there might be one, but either the husband or my friend's mom will watch her. this is when i find out there is a baby with one of her sisters. i was not planning on finding a sitter. i believe it was concluded that if they wanted a sitter, she will have to arrange it. after all, she's the one that wanted us to invite them! so, again, i thought this was the end of that. i was wrong...
we get an email today saying that one of the sisters asked a brother or two if they were coming to the wedding. well, they said they didn't get an invite. so now she wants to know if we can send invites to the three brothers (unfortunately he has a HUGE family from aunts and uncles to siblings) even though she doesn't think they will come. AAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGJHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
here's the problem with that. 1. we have limited space on the stage. there are certain friends that were not invited because of limited space. i would rather have friends at my wedding then aunts and uncles that only come around once in a blue moon! i don't even think they know waht he looks like except through pictures! so by inviting them, we are taking a risk of them coming and not having any room on the stage. like i said, would rather have friends there. 2. i have to make MORE invitations!
now i am trying to be the cool bride, and not have any drama, and i was doing good! i thought my family would be the ones with all the dramas. nope, it would be his mother. i don't know what to do! i don't want to make more invites for one, i just don't want to make them, and second, what if they all do decide to come? huh? then what? everyone must sit on other laps? i have a slight safety net where i know my two cousins aren't coming (no surprise to me) and i know that i have two friends who are involved with a show that night, that won't be able to make it. so that frees up 8 seats, but again, with the whole invite a certain % more than what it will seat thing still has me a little freaked out. i know that if i don't invite them, she will still somehow get it in a conversation and make me feel guilty.
OH! and if her sisters come in in time, she wants them to come to the rehearsal dinner! ok, now on this, she's paying for the dinner, so as long as those that are involved in the wedding are accounted for, it's not as big a deal, except that i only wanted those who were involved in the wedding to be at the rehearsal. it never ends! i don't know what to do! i know that if i argue anything or deny anything, that she will still somehow, without knowing it, or knowing it, make me feel like shit! she's good like that. and she's good at making me feel stupid sometimes too. now i love her to death (but not as much as my mom) but there are just some things, i just can't handle! anyway, i think i have vented enough for one night. i am trying not to talk about the wedding much, but really! this needed to be vented. i'm sure everything will work out, and i will be so engrossed at being a newly wed and partying that i will forget all this drama. but for now, it's drama. ARG!

sanity is great!

i talked to the girl that took over payroll at my old job today. she finally learned about how crazy my old boss was. found out a few things that she has said not only about me, but about some of my friends there to people who hadn't even met us yet. not too happy about that. a long letter was written to HR from my coworker about what is going on with the boss. and i can just tell you, i am in a much happier place! so far, even though it's only been a week and a day, i really like my new boss. i like my job, i like the coworkers, i like the company, and i like that the days go by pretty quick! it's great! it's like the old job was a nightmare that i got to keep the friends when i woke up. but i still have the afterthoughts. i'm not there anymore though, and it is for the better! i'm sure i will have my days at the new job, but it will help a lot more in paying the bills. only problem is it's biweekly, so i won't be getting a check for a couple weeks. have to watch myself these next two weeks so i can make sure i can help pay the morgage! what also isn't helping is that my loan consolidation hasn't gone through yet. there was some confusion on thier part so i have to pay full amount on my loans one more month. and with the wedding coming around the corner (yeay!) i really could've used that one extra month. anywho, for those that have asked and are wondering, i love my new job! i think i will be staying there for a while! there is another girl there that has almost the same personality as me. could get interesting! oh, and for those who are eager, the invites are going out next week, so watch your mail! i made them myself. i'm so proud. =) talk soon!

I still got it!

i could tell you all about my new house, again. but this is a much more exciting story...

i was in one of my favorite stores today looking for some things for my new house =) i was winding in and out of some of the aisles when i noticed this kid was in the same sections i was. i thought it ironic more than anything and wondered if he would come around the next aisle. as i am standing there looking at cork/dry erase boards, i noticed he did not take the turn with me. just as i finished the thought he comes right around the corner and says "excuse me, i think you are pretty cute and was wondering if you would go out on a date with me."
before i go on, let me draw you a picture ( i guess it's more write). i am almost 30. not a fun age. at this point i am feeling fat and old. i know i'm not fat, but it's a girl thing. this morning i actually styled my hair and put on make-up. was in a short skirt (to the knees boys) and a fitting shirt. HE on the other hand was MAYBE 16. glasses, short, scrawny, boyish! no offense should you happen to cross this blog.
i go on...
i was totally taken back by what was just said to me. i giggled and smiled and told him i was sorry but i was engaged. he was slightly disappointed, and i told him that was was totally flattered by him asking me. he said then said " well, i just think you are really hot (FLATTERED!) and thought i would ask you out." i appoligized again and he asked for a hug. this is the best part. i told him sure, and gave him a hug. when he let go and said thanks his cheeks were beat red! it was so cute!
so yes, i was just thought of still being in high school, and hot! which i never got in high school. if the kid only knew i was at least 12 years older than him! i just couldn't break his little heart more than it already was. and i give him credit! that took guts to ask out a hot "girl"! i couldn't do that to a guy! it made my night. made me feel young and skinny (and hot) again.
and about the house, moved in last monday, inlaws were here, they are finally gone, half unpacked, lots of empty space, awesome views of the mountains and summer storms. smells like farm poop. but we love it!