oh stage, how i've missed you!

so we are three weeks away from opening night. i can't believe it's already so close! The cast is awesome! the show is going to be spectacular! i can't wait! and i am falling more in love with my character every rehearsal. it's my high. i will have the worst day, or be so tired, but as soon as i step on that stage, it's like this world does not exist. just this little historic church in a small town that is being transformed into a little town in indiana in the 1920s.
the other night i had the best experience and it really made me realize just how much i've missed the stage. i have this scene with a lot of lines. i'm telling about three stories at once. and my character, Darlene, just took over and i was just naturally doing things and the director liked everything i did! i even made him laugh! in a good way! it was great. i can't even explain the feeling. you thesbians know what i'm talking about. you just get engulfed in this person you are trying to create and when it connects, it's unreal, but great! i don't have her completely yet, but for that one brief moment at rehearsal the other day i was higher than a kite.
unfortunately, i won't be able to audition for a while because all the shows coming up are around the time my mom is coming, which would be great, but she's only here for a short bit and i don't want to be at the theatre most of the time. if the shows aren't then, it's when we are on vacation (can't wait!) so i must keep my eye out. this is the best drug ever! that and being in love with my husband. hehe!

Tumbleweeds DO exist!

being an Ohio born American, tumbleweeds are not something that come blowing across your yard every day. sure, i've seen them on the western movies, blowing, tumbling across the dry dirt road from one ghost building to the next. but i never thought i would actually really see one! driving down the highway, they just tumble right across the road! not caring if you hit them or not. i wouldn't recommend hitting them though. if they get stuck under your car, it gets hot, BIG fire! haven't experienced it yet, and i hope not to. i've seen these strange weeds out here for a while. i just now feel like writing about them. it is so windy here today, the clouds cling to the earth and sky, as the wind pushes the middle away from its central being. they look like big sails in the sky. then tumbleweeds come running across the highway. not a care in the world. makes me feel like i'm in a modern western. plains on both sides, but instead of a dirt road, it's a paved highway with fast moving vehicles, struggling to keep their spot in the lane as the wind trys to clear the land. then the house creaks as the wind hits it with all it's might, huffing and puffing. tumbleweeds even find thier ways into our yard. old western meets modern world. the mountains don't seem to get the weeds. just strong winds blinding the roads, as it turns the soft falling snow to a white blanket. it's out to stop any car from passing. it's a 4 seasons on one day here in colorado today. and it's suppose to snow again this friday. calling for 4 inches right now. as the wind attacks my house, i feel safe inside the walls, knowing nothing will get through, no matter how hard it knocks (unless it's an uncontrolable funnel that the skies have released. but it's too sunny for that)

what to say!

i don't really have anything to write about. at least at the point of writing the title. rehearsals are going well. they are really pushing me to bring out all this stuff with my character. i feel kinda bad that i keep holding up rehearsals by doing my scenes over and over until i get where they want me. it was kinda frustrating actually. but hopefully i will get her where they want her.
i've thought about writing a book! i know! me! an author! we'll see. i keep thinking about it, but when you have a computer that doesn't move, it's kinda hard and gets very uncomfortable to sit, it's hard to get motivated. and i have a friend who has said she would edit it for me! and i'm sure she can hook me up with some publishers as well! since she works for a magazine. i'm sure she can find someone!
not much else going on. not much else on my mind. i am very excited to see wicked in a month!!! of course that also means it will be the day before opening night!!!! i am so excited to get back on the stage! i just wish i could get on big stages, and even maybe a movie! some day i will make more than my husband and everyone will know who i am. don't know if i want that, but i want to share my talents with the world. ah to be mediocre at everything. someday i will find something that will make me shine!

had to walk away!

i just can't take it anymore. i just can't watch the game anymore. and by the time i get this posted, it will probably be over. and seeing as i don't hear any excitement from my husband, i have a feeling it's not a pretty sight. why can't the buckeyes just win a championship this year? why are we making it all the way and then lose it in the end? now i will say that at least the basketball players showed up this game. i won't get into my judgement of the game. but i will say i am tried of hearing about Oden and how long he's been in the game, out of the game, blah blah blah! OSU has other players! it's like when krenzel (?) was the quarterback! all we heard about was how smart he was, blah blah blah. maybe if i walk away, there will be a miracle. maybe just maybe! i can't take it. i just have to not watch anymore. it's a good thing OSU has a good medical program cause they have a lot of heart attacks to study from all the suspense every sport seems to like to give. maybe some day they will make a movie about OSU, the teams that never made it to the end. sigh.