TGIF! (after 5)

no longer excited from the day before. today was a crappy day. i tried to set up an interview with the call i got yesterday, but she can't meet after work hours, so i am going to have to figure something out. i guess i'll just "have an appointment". and then i really screwed up today at work and it wasn't noticed till the end of the day. it really sucked, and i wouldn't be surprised if my boss doesn't want hire me anymore. it was just a frustrating day overall and she wouldn't let me work on payroll. she thinks i can get it done on monday. which i don't think i can when she keeps giving me things that need done in the morning and that would only leave me 4 hours to get done what i need done. i so need a new job. i hate this so much. and all i keep doing tonight is think about all the stuff i need to do at work and i hate that! i even tried to read a book, and my eyes kept following the words, but my mind went to other things. then i tried to go to sleep and think about the wedding, but i kept going back to work! now i know how my fiance is! i don't know why this job is just getting the best of me! i have never been this terrible at anything! except maybe french. and i haven't been able to work out, and i'm not sleeping well. i'm just a wreck! i need like a week off instead of a day! and next weekend is going to go sooooo fast i won't even know what hit me. i need to find a better more enjoyable way to make money. this just isn't cutting it. and now my fiance is freaking out (again) because he's afraid they aren't going to hire me and we are going to lose the house. i just wish we were in the house. then we wouldn't have to worry about it anymore and if i don't have a job, it will be tough, but i think we would make it. ARG! it's amazing what 24 hours can do! i am so glad the weekend is here, and i hope it just skips right to friday!