it's official

i could go on and on about how much i don't like my boss. but i would run out of room. so lets just say i have been struggling to keep a job till i find another and put up with the "harassment" as some people think she is doing to me. to make it short, i will tell you that she micromanages, questions me on EVERYTHING, and i feel like i have to defend myself all day. she expects perfection, and she's not going to get that from me. everything turns around to be about her. i don't even know what she tells me people say are true or if she is making it up so the focus comes on me because she's in trouble on something. i don't know. i had a coworker appoligize to me for my boss being so mean to me. now that is saying something. the most recent event has me without a job as of next friday. last weekend apperently she hurt her back. and not many people believe her. she knows it too and is all paranoid. anyway, she was out friday, monday and tues. she came in wed and called me in her office. apperently me and the other accountant made her look bad while she was out. and people are telling her things that i am saying to other people, not to her, about things that she does that bothers me. she was pretty pissed. anyway, to make a long story short, we mutually agreed next friday will be my last day. she tried to get it out of me what i have been saying about her, and i didn't say a thing. why? becuase i knew she would argue and argue on what i said, and i'm exhausted on arguing with her, when i know i will never be right. no matter what the subject is. oh, and the shoes i wore today REALLY make my feet stink! sorry, the smell is really bothering me. thought i'd share. anyway, she told me that if i'm not going to tell her than next friday will be my last day. (which is when i believe my contract ends anyway) so i said fine, got up and walked out of her office. being pissed off, my eyes would water. something that happens that apperently she thinks is for attention. WHOLE other story. anyway, so i was trying to block the leak. when i went in her office to tell her something, she tried to get it out of me agian, and we went through the whole thing again! what the hell! i didn't go in there to talk about it agian. i had to tell her something! i was emotionally and physically exhausted before lunch! i guess she was in and out of keeping me though because my friend in HR said she couldn't make up her mind. so i go in this morning and she askes if next friday is going to be my last day. i said yep. i just can't take it anymore! she already lost someone becuase of how she treats us. and what is really funny, is the AR guy is resigning wed, and it's his last day, becuase he got a job in chicago. she does almost the same thing to him. he can't wait to get out of there. and i think it is going to be awesome. yeah, i might not have a job, but i will be so much better mentally! we are already down two people, and two people are starting wed or thurs, and she has no idea he is leaving. it's going to be great. i wish i had the pleasure of coming in and saying it's my last day and then she's all alone. oh well.
there is a silver lining however. i have a temp job that could go full time if the person gets her way. we have been back and forth on the phone, and she has to talk to her boss, who happens to live in PA and the office got flooded. one time when i was talking to her, i asked her if it was really a go. she said yes, she just needs to get some details (probably pay) and a start date. i talked to her yesterday and told her i could start at any time (hoping to leave before next friday, but i don't think it will happen) and she said she probably won't call me till wed due to the flood in PA and her boss trying to make sense of things again out there. she hopes to talk to her wed and then get with me.
i haven't told my fiance what is going on with my current job. i don't want him to pull out of the house, when it is quite possible i will have a job agian shortly. i might tell him monday after work. i just don't want to screw things up with the house. i wish he would've said an earlier date, like a month ago, but i know why he said the date he did. you don't need those details. by the way jeremy, you could get a great story out of all the drama in my life right now. it is such a rollercoaster, it isn't even funny. oh, and our bird is probably going to die soon. he's only maybe 6. there is this really ugly growth by his beak, and we can't really afford to get it taken off. even though it is so tiny and so this the bird, it would still cost $5,000. i'm guessing. i just want to cut it off myself. but i won't. so as much as i hate to see him suffer, we really can't get it taken off. oh, and we aren't getting cable right away when we get the house. that's a bummer. still going to have the rabbit ears. i really need to quit typing so much. i just go on and on and on. and by the end, it doesn't even relate to what i started with. so i will make it end as it began. as of next friday, i will have my sanity back. it's official.

EWWWW....

Yeah, so you see that? THAT would be 14 pieces of Bubble gum. And i'm not talking about your normal size gum. no, this was like bubba yum or something. The really sugary juicey kind till you've chewed it for 10 minutes. well, i didn't have 10 minutes per piece. THIS would be the result of my bachelorette party. My loving friend got this game and each person had a pack of gum. each different flavors. there was cotton candy, sour apple (which i made them change cause i could barely swollow), regular, watermelon, strawberry, and lemonade. THIS would be the result of getting 14 questions WRONG about my fiance out of 40. so each person had to ask me a question. and if i got it wrong, i had to put a piece in my mouth. i could barely swollow by the end. i looked like a chipmunk. they were very entertained. and then, when i tell my fiance the questions i got wrong, he said, oh that would've counted. HE WASN'T THERE TO JUDGE! so i was stuck eating the piece that i could've gotten right.
one question i got wrong, where was he born. i said Winsor which is where he grew up, but he was born in a hospital in Hartford. which is the answer he gave them, but winsor would've counted. (i find this out afterwards)
where was our first kiss? i said outside his house. he said in the family room. let me just tell you about this. he officially put his lips on mine outside his house, by my car. it was right before i had to go back to school, and a week after we started dating. the unofficial kiss, which i guess he counted, was when i gave him butterfly kisses. he was so shy to kiss me that i would give him butterfly kisses and he loved them. now this is sweet, yes, that he counts that as the first kiss, but it made me eat another piece of GUM!!!!
i don't even remember the other questions i got wrong. anyway, it is gross. if only you could see the other pictures. i don't want to crash the computer though. the rest of the night turned out much better. the only bad thing about the whole weekend was i didn't get to see my guys except one cause i stay at his house. he's kinda married to my friend who took me out. but i didn't get to see any of the other guys. MISS YOU! and i really miss hanging out with everyone. lets just say, i was fine until i got on the plane. then the waterworks came. once we got in the air, i was able to read my book (wicked, recommend!) but then when we landed and ported, the tears came again. i don't think the guy next to me knew what to do. which by the way, snored and farted the whole 3 and a half hour flight. and then when i saw kelly i cried more. i was glad to see him, but i so miss all my friends in ohio. and i miss all the trees. we have trees. just not as much. so, anyway, i have written enough and have cuased myself to cry again. I hope everyone comes out at once to see me and we can go out here! all my friends. just scoop them all up and bring them here. oh well. at least there is one more time i KNOW i will see most of them. OCTOBER 21st! 113 days, 18hrs, 34 minutes. but whos counting. miss you!

TGIF! (after 5)

no longer excited from the day before. today was a crappy day. i tried to set up an interview with the call i got yesterday, but she can't meet after work hours, so i am going to have to figure something out. i guess i'll just "have an appointment". and then i really screwed up today at work and it wasn't noticed till the end of the day. it really sucked, and i wouldn't be surprised if my boss doesn't want hire me anymore. it was just a frustrating day overall and she wouldn't let me work on payroll. she thinks i can get it done on monday. which i don't think i can when she keeps giving me things that need done in the morning and that would only leave me 4 hours to get done what i need done. i so need a new job. i hate this so much. and all i keep doing tonight is think about all the stuff i need to do at work and i hate that! i even tried to read a book, and my eyes kept following the words, but my mind went to other things. then i tried to go to sleep and think about the wedding, but i kept going back to work! now i know how my fiance is! i don't know why this job is just getting the best of me! i have never been this terrible at anything! except maybe french. and i haven't been able to work out, and i'm not sleeping well. i'm just a wreck! i need like a week off instead of a day! and next weekend is going to go sooooo fast i won't even know what hit me. i need to find a better more enjoyable way to make money. this just isn't cutting it. and now my fiance is freaking out (again) because he's afraid they aren't going to hire me and we are going to lose the house. i just wish we were in the house. then we wouldn't have to worry about it anymore and if i don't have a job, it will be tough, but i think we would make it. ARG! it's amazing what 24 hours can do! i am so glad the weekend is here, and i hope it just skips right to friday!

more excitement!

yes, another blog for today! i just had too much to say that i didn't want to put it on the other one. we have our loans approved for the new house, so things are moving forward with that! so excited! it's just so far away that it seems surreal. my fiance is driving me nutz with the budgeting and stuff. if he didn't think we could afford it, we shouldn't have gotten it. but it's too late now. we got our loans consolidated so that will make some money free. I'll just be paying mine for another 12 years. stupid college. and now i want to go back, so i probably won't ever stop paying those. but it will all work out. i like to freak him out and tell him i'm going to buy a whole lot at kohls. hehe! let's see.
i'm finally going back to ohio next weekend! i am so excited. keep saturday open! you know who you are! or sunday. i fly home friday afternoon. i wish i could come home sooner and stay longer so i could see everyone, but i just can't afford to miss that much work. i miss everyone so much. i miss hanging out with my guys and doing theatre with everyone and random parties at jeremy's. oh well. everyone will just have to come out here for a party at our new house!!!!!!!!! that would be the best time ever!
OH! i'm also going to see two shows this year! lion king is coming this fall!!!!!!!! i got my fiance tickets for his birthday at the end of the month. he doesn't know. unless he looked at my credit card statement. which wouldn't surprise me because it's rather large and i haven't been able to pay it off and pay for the wedding. hhmmmm... anyway, so we are going to that in november, and then my mom got me tickets to my favorite opera (which she didn't know at the time) la traviata in Aspen! so that will be a new adventure for us! so i am going to that in july!!! AND my fiance's coworkers from ohio got him a gift card to a dinner theatre in denver and we are planning on going to see SWING! which is my most favorite style of dance! we haven't gotten the tickets yet, but that's on our schedule of theatre! yeay! so out of all the shows, the only tickets we have to buy are lion king and it will be well worth the money i am sure!
we are constantly driving into the mountains on the weekends and enjoying finding new things and watching it blossom as summer arrives. i have a disposable and a half full of pictures of our adventures last weekend. when those are developed i will share! and i am bringing them home next weekend so if i see you, i will show you then! well, i guess i better go do the dishes before my fiance comes home. i told him i would do them, and, well, haven't gotten there yet. Life''s on a turn right now and i hope there isn't another turn the other way! hopefully everything will work out! ok, ok, i'm coming dishes! never teach them to talk. they just don't shut up!!!!! =)

excitement

Yeah yeah. i've been bad. so i started blogs to keep busy while i await my fiance to come home, but then i started working out after work, and blah blah and then he would come home. well, he is working tonight so i thought i would catch everyone up. well, more just to tell you about my day today since he isn't here to hear about it right now.
so last you knew my job was on the line. well, now not so much! i started to step up to the plate and really let her show me things. not that i thought i wasn't, but according to others, i was. anyway, last friday i was basically told hire or fire. i don't want to work there, but since we are getting a house, i thought it would be pretty wise to stay. and they were going to pay me what i need. so that is in the works. but in the meantime, i have been looking for that perfect job. which won't really happen until after i go back to college. So today, and yesterday, i scored major brownie points with my boss. i stayed till 9:00 pm to finish month end. then today i told her i would help with A/P (our ap person left). so within 4 hours she coded and i entered a week's worth of invoices. i stayed over today too. and she was greatly impressed at that. she kept saying how much i rock! heck yeah!
next exciting thing. i had an interview saturday for a job. waiting on the callback. checked my home email at lunch and i got a questionnaire to fill out before being considered for a job. which is awesome because it's a sales position for a closet design company and i really want to do that, but have very very little sales experience. so i have to fill that out. then when i got home, i have a message of another company that wants to interview me! heck yeah! i will feel really bad if i leave my current boss, but if something with better pay, environment, benefits comes along, i'm going to take it.
and then! i come home and there is a card from one of my grandma's who is unable to come to my bridal shower and sent me a nice size check! that is going towards the wedding. as much as i would like it to go towards the house, i kinda need to pay for the photographer and reception. so that was exciting too!
and yesterday (i know it's not today, but they kinda go together right now with all the hours) my friend who is in the wedding called me last night! i haven't talked to her in a couple months. she's very pregnant and i was afraid she wouldn't come to the shower, but she's coming! so excited.
so those are my exciting things that have happened to me the past couple days. oh, and i saw the cutest puppy at lunch by the river! so cute! they always make me happy. thanks for reading about my excitements!