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can you believe it? i'm back! back from the dead, or rather reality. don't really have many excuses for my absence. but if i'm going to make up an excuse, i might as well make up a few!
I'm totally whipped. yes, by my husband. and not physically either. that's just not a turn on for me. he wants to spend time with me. cuddling on the couch, watching movies. AAHHHH.. yes i hear you guys. so i don't make it up to the computer.
i've been sick. all last week i would come home so tired from work that i don't even get up to get the phone when my husband calls to tell me he's leaving. and i go to bed shortly after 9. yeah, i was sick.
this past week, hmmm... really no excuse. i can't think of one. just can't make it up to the computer. so what makes we write tonight? yep, you guessed it. he is working his every other friday night, although it's been every week the past month. enough with excuses, even if they were good ones. =) i don't really have a theme for the blog. just what i can remember what is on my mind. i will say this,
I'M TIRED OF SNOW!!!!!
i never thought i would say it, but i did! even if it is just a dusting. i'm so tired of shoveling once or twice a week. although we did have one week of no snow! but we did have three days of frozen fog. that was fun. and now it's been warm enough, all the snow that is not shadowed has melted. our front lawn, yeah, still LOTS of snow. and guess what! it's going to snow AGAIN! seriously. i think we got the point. it's winter! i'm ready for the windows to open and cool breezes at night, and a quiet rain on the rooftops. the smell of wet sky blowing through the room! and my hair getting frizzy.
i'm going to see wicked! i'm so excited!! it's coming in may. let me just tell you about how we got these tickets. i don't know if i ever told you, but my husband made a friend at my cousin's christmas party. my cousin is not straight, and neither were many of the people there, but i was totally cool with that. well, my husband starts talking to this guy (yes, the guy is gay) and they exchanged #s which i guess was teased about afterwards. the guy (we shall call PA) has a serious partner, so it was quite interesting. anyway, they went out one time. i did not go on this adventure. they just went out to dinner. i guess PA just like to talk to my husband because they like to talk about things in ways that most people, including me, don't normally talk. if you've met my husband, you know what i am talking about, and i can't explain it. anyway, the next time PA wanted to do something, my husband wanted me to come too. so where to do we go? the mountains with PA's partner and another couple. the trip was a couple hours and PA kept saying how he wants us (my husband and i) to do all these things with him. the list is very long. we did have a good time, and when we got back, we hung out at their house for a little bit. which is when we were invited to see Wicked. now i kinda feel slightly intruding. there are a group of guys that always do things together, including my cousin. he is getting a ticket for his birthday, even though he really doesn't like theatre. so we are a new addition to this group, kinda. so, PA called us again a couple weeks ago and wanted to go out. so we meet him for a late lunch, meet his partner at the denver art museum (saw monet, it was awesome!!!) and then we decide to go out to dinner and then a movie. now i find myself relating more to PA's partner, who i shall call AL. however, i think he still feels a little akward hanging out the "the other kind" because we aren't normal in thier world. anyway, PA really wants us to go to this dance and drum thing for his birthday. just us and AL. none of his other friends. just us. ok. so we are going next wed. then we are going to wicked with a bunch of guys i don't really know, besides my cousin and these two. it shall be interesting, but it will be fun. for they are a great bunch of guys (from the brief moments i've met them) but i need some straight friends! i have one really good friend. but she's in school and works and writes papers for school, so i don't get to see her much. i have another friend that i hang out with how is also gay, and as much fun as her and her partner are, we need some straight friends! i just can't explain it. i love hanging out with them, don't get me wrong! and i don't feel awkward at all with either of them. i think i just need some friends.
i'm so itching to do theatre, it's killing me! i really want to do a musical, but i think that ship has sailed until after the summer. but maybe i can get into a play. i can do plays. i need to work on monologues, but i can do cold reads!
(side note, the cold front is coming. the wind is really hitting the side of our house! it's supposed to rain, then snow. i can just hear the wind for now. thought you'd want to know) i just want to be on the stage. i want to get really good and win awards again! yeah, i've only won once, but it's a great feeling and i want to accomplish that again! some day...plus, once i get into a show, i will know more of other auditions, and make friends! i won't ever see my husband, but i'll have some more friends! in case you didn't know, i really need to have that social life. my husband, not so much, but i do.
speaking of friends, i'm still terribly homesick. every now and then i will start to stare at my computer and my eyes get watery, and i have a quiet little meltdown of loneliness. my OH friends are just so much fun to hang out with! i totall miss it! and i've made my eyes water again! dang it! i am going to be hanging out with some awesome OH friends this summer as they venture to myrtle beach with us! i can-not wait! it's still a while so i should push it aside.
i shall conclude with the murder of the cat, or rather, some days i would like to! we bought grapes last week. we've gotten them before, however, Ols has decided to discover them this time. he now jumps up on the counter quite frequently, and it is really starting to piss me off! one day we came home and found all these little grapes all over the house! if that doesn't give it away that he was up there! every day, there were more grapes. i ended up not eating them anymore because i don't know what he's touched. do you know where that tounge and those paws have been? NASTY! i woke up the other day and found all the grapes lined up along the side of the sink. then tonight i make chicken nuggets. some were left out. i heard the pan move, and yelled at him. i didn't see him, but the shot glass with toothpicks on it's side was a good indication that he was up there. and he had the NERVE to meow back at me! i just want to cut his jumping muscles so he will stay down. one of these days, i'm going to buy fly paper and leave it on the counter. yeah, he won't like having THAT stuck to his paws. don't know if that will keep him down, but it's worth a shot!
i've written enough. this is what happens when i am left alone, not wanting to do anything, and not written for a couple weeks. hope you made it to THE END!