lunch break

the disadvantage of living 30 minutes away is i'm stuck here for lunch. my job in ohio i could go home every lunch! i only lived 10 minutes at the most away! so now i am stuck here. and no one is going to lunch, so i am eating at my desk. i was going to go shopping, but that get's pretty scary. especially when i'm by myself. so i am sitting here, not wanting to do work after lunch, ready to go home. i'm just so bored anymore here. it's a busy job, which i like, but it's not what i want to do, and the more i do this, the less i want to do it. but i have to stay here for a little bit so i can still live. everything i want to do pretty much requires a degree, so i would have to go back for that. so many decisions. and i'm getting older, and i just want to start over. go back to age 18 when i started college, and convince my mother i need to go to a far away school to study marine biology. i would only take my friends and my husband back with me. there's a woman here who is a temp. she will be doing my coworker's job while she is out on maturnity leave. this woman smokes. no one else in the dept does. i have a headache from the smell. she trys to cover it with perfume. that just makes it worse. i am reminded of this smell every time i go through the door. not very inviting. it makes me wonder if i smell like it when i go home. it really makes me not want to come in. i have to put up with it for at least 2 months. it all depends on when the baby comes. i just hope she comes back from leave, cause i don't think i will be able to work with this every day. it's kinda rude to ask her not to smoke. she's older, and some people are just set in thier ways and won't stop. she has that raspy voice, and wrinkily skin. and such a stench! ok, done venting about that. i'm just reminded every day of it as i take a breath and my nose burns!!! i'm still hungry. my lunch was not satisfying. i was trying not to have to get anything from the cafe, but i think i'm going to have to break down and get something. i did better this pay than last at spending money there. still more than i wanted to. oh well. . .