Miss Willie and me...

now don't take that title the wrong way! it is short for willimenia. and i totally spelled it wrong. it's my character in "the curious Savage". tonight was one of those nights that every true actor looks forward to. yes, we are still on script, so full character mode is handicapped by a book in your hand. but a character still needs to be present. i had these certain moments where Miss Willie was there. there were points, and i got commented on them, where i just did things. it's what she would do. i was just being her. and i was her. and then i get complimented on my entrance, or a look i gave, or a way i said a line. and to be honest, i don't quite remember what i did. probably becuase she did it. not me. so i just have to hope she brings it again to rehearsal. and i've got to get off book. although i have recieved compliments from the director t hat he can tell i really worked hard on my character, when in reality, i just read the lines between work and rehearsal, in a restaurant. can't really speak them out loud. i just have to trust MW will get me through this and we will become great as one...

i'm addicted...

and it's driving my husband nutz! my new (old) laptop stays right next to the couch. i'm almost always on it. and tonight i started playing internet games. yeah. i almost didn't want to quit! i think it's even effecting the dog! hmm... i just can't help it! it's here. there's nothing on... why not play! and now i am writing this to ease my mind of the games... but i don't think it's working. i must go to bed soon though because i HAVE to get up tomorrow morning to go to kickboxing. with the late hours of work, then going to rehearsal, then eating when i get home,,, not healthy. i must find a better way of doing things or i will be double my weight by the time the show opens. ok, probably not, but i do need to do something.
i talked to my best friend today. i'm going to see her this summer and i can't wait! last time i saw both her and her daugher was when i got married. actually, that's pretty much the last time i saw most of my ohio friends... hmmm... oh, ohio friends, i'm coming home in july! yeay!!! we must get together!
ok. i must give my puppy some cuddle time, and then i'm off to bed. good night crazy world. i will see you in the morning...

thoughts in the night

i was laying here reading my lines and started thinking about this role compared to other roles. this one's more serious. she doesn't have the little crazy things almost all my other characters had. then i started thinking about energy. how am i to get this calm character to have energy on stage? i do believe this will be one of the great challenges with this role. then i started reminissing on my other roles and the notes i recieved in the past. and i remember one very distinctly. i was in oklahoma. i was a dancer, and danced the can can scene. although i was not one of the three main dancers for that sequence. there were four of us that were not. and we each came on stage at different times, stood in a pose until it was time for all of us to dance. the director of this show is a fabulous director, and well respected. he's not one to point out a specific person and compliment them in front of the entire cast. let me just tell you what happened.
being a can can girl, i figured they were pretty seductive. so i thought to myself how would i stand if i were a real can can? so i go through some poses in my mind and decided when i got on stage to but my right hand on my hip, cross my left hand over to the right hand, and stand leaning a little to the right. and had a look only a can can can have on my face. and i stuck with that pose. but what i didn't realize was i was even walking to that position on the stage in character. i knew i had to. i couldn't be me then stand and be her. that's just not how it's done. it was like walking through a mirror, and as soon as my feet hit the paint, i was her, whore and all. now keep in mind, i never really had theatre training. i was actually the only one of the 6 that didn't.
so one night during tech week, apperently the director had enough and had to say something. we were all on the floor getting our notes. he says my name and says how as soon as i hit the stage, i am in character. i hit the pose and i'm in character, and my energy shows through that character. i was just standing there! and he said that no one else was doing that! and it made me stand out as soon as i walked on stage!
wow... never saw that one coming! i was just doing what an actress was supposed to do. i was very flattered by this comment and will never forget it. all this time i just thought i was at the lower level of acting, when, in fact, i was getting up there with the better ones! and i've had other comments that said how much energy i had, just standing there! so i have come to ease at having energy with this character, for i do believe it is a natural thing (would it be if i had no idea i was doing it?) for me to have energy. now i just need to obsorb the character, and i will succeed in my acting.
although i can't wait for the next play where i get to be crazy again! haha~!

my crazy life begins

and my husband gets stuck with the dog...
sounds like a good title for a book huh! well, for now it will have to do for the title of my life, or blog. whichever...

i am writing on my new laptop! ok, it's not new, but it's new to me. and it's a good thing i have it or i wouldn't be getting much done right now as i am not feeling well, that kind where you are still chilled, even under four layers of blankets, and your eyes water for no reason, and your throat just craves salt. and now i can lay under these four layers of blankets and STILL work ono the internet!
Thursday was the first day of many many busy days to come. we had our first readthrough for "Curious Savage" and i'm stoked to start blocking and working with such a talented cast! once this show ends, the next one begins... and then i go on vacation... then the next show begins, if i'm able to be in that one as well. ah, the joys of theatre! i love it.
i still have company meetings. i don't know how often this is going to happen, but i was an idiot at the last meeting and volunteered to be in charge of archiving our newly formed theatre. it was my idea. i feel something like this needs to be saved. it's a big deal! especially if we become something that EVERYONE wants to audition for and we sell out every night. that would be cool! so now i have to work on getting the props that are slowing coming in cataloged, plus, start looking for props for the first show. my frustration with this is that there's some communication that's not going on, or involving me, AKA props manager. hmmm... anyway, i now must find time to hang out on the internet to find stuff.
on top of all the stuff i am now involved with the theatre, i still have my stampin up business. and i'm probably going to be advertising in this one little newsletter, that might start bringing more mula my way! i lost money last year. long story. anywho, i have to now work around my theatre schedule. fun times!
so on top of everything that is going on in the evenings and weekends, things at my full time job have taken a turn as well. they did some reorging within the department, and i was given the middle position of being the communicator for group 1 field people. yeah, that kept be busy. every week, we have lost an associate due to better opportunity. yeah, so what once was 6 people processing payroll (not including managers and projects) we are now 3. so this means that i am now the communicator for the whole world as my boss put it. yeah. i've been busy. no wonder i don't feel well!
the good news is this is a short work week for me and my hubby. much needed, i do feel. we are taking thursday and friday off. not going anywhere, just taking it off. i might paint my office. we'll see though.
so that's my current status of life. i'm hoping with the laptop that i will be able to blog more. not that anyone really reads it. but i guess that's not the point. it's just to write down thoughts, and make realization of just how much is going on in my life right now. sigh...