17 again, even if it's just for a day

My absence from the stage has ended! That's right my fellow readers! i am back on the stage! i saw the audition a week ago, i never got to read the script. just saw the ages. knew i would be stuck in the middle, but i thought i would give it a chance. so this monday, i went and auditioned for this little theatre (and you thought CP was small!) about 20 minutes away. i handed the director my application and he saw my age and told me that i was borderline for some of the roles, and i told him i had played a teen before (and won an award for it, but i didn't tell him that) and he said he'll see what he could do! so i go up and read. i read for the sister to the lead brother. both teens. felt good about it. then i read for her best friend and cousin, another teen. the character engulfed me! i was this person, saying these words and making these motions and i had no control of it! and i was reading her for the first time! it was the best feeling EVER! and how i missed it! so he had me read her a lot that night. then on wed, he sends out the email for those he wants called back. i emailed him back saying i would be there. he emails me back and said that i would've already been cast, however it was the boyfriend that i had to match up to and suggested i try to look slightly younger that night. and he really enjoyed watching me! there were more comments and suggestions from him in another email, that i won't bore you with, but it really shot up my confidence! so i work with my husband on how to get me younger. i go to call backs. two roles were already cast. the lead teen boy, who is slightly older, but it works, and then the preacher. both did really well at auditions. well, the teen (his character's name is buddy) sat beside me. when we went on break after a tough audition, he told me i did a really good job. then there was some small talk and then he wanted to know how old i was. i told him i would tell him later. i just didn't feel right telling him at that moment when my competition was sitting two seats over. break is over and the director asks some men to stay and say to everyone else he will email the cast list by saturday, but will probably have it out before then. then dismissed everyone else. so i look at buddy and tell him this is the worst part of auditions. he said i have nothing to worry about. he's pretty sure i am in. i said i don't know. then he said he would put money on it, and i said i wouldn't. don't want to get too confident! it just makes disappointment more shattering. so then i shake his hand and say congrats on the role for him and tell him i'm 29. his eyes got big and his mouth dropped and he said NO WAY! i just laughed and said yeah, and walked out. this morning i check my email about a thousand times. no listing. not that i expect it to be posted! then at around 9:30 i get a call from the director asking me to play the role of Darlene! of course i accept, i get off the phone and fly to cloud 9! i think i'm more excited to be on the stage again than getting the role! although i am thrilled to be playing Darlene! she is the character that overtook me and i can't wait for it to just grow and grow! i am so exited i can't even stand it! i just want to climb to the top of mt meeker and tell the whole world "I'M BACK STAGE! WATCH OUT!" and what is really cool is that i always wanted to play a teen or kid. i thought it would be something like charlie brown or something, but this works! sigh. still floating. somebody pull my cloud down! my husband is a little bumbed. i think he's kinda sad he's not on the stage, and he's the theater major! he is sad that he won't see me three days a week. and then if i have a workshop, or have to work at WS, yeah, he won't see me much. you probably want to know the play huh! it's called "The Diviners" and the website is www.tclstage.org just in case you want to take a trip to CO and see me!!!!!!! there's free lodging! YEAY!!!!