what's behind the mind?

so i have no idea what to write. i'm on my lunch, only because i have to be, not because i want to be. since i don't live close, i either waste gas and money at a store, or hang out in my cubie. so i sit here, hoodie up, pondering on the thoughts in the back of my head. what do i want to bring forward? do i even know what thoughts lay back there? some things i just shouldn't post. i'm tired of writing non interesting, look what's got me down, blogs.
but why do i have nothing interesting to say? and why can't i get those thoughts out from the back? i could complain, but no one cares about that. you know that CD i was all excited that i found? yeah, it's still at home, so i'm not even enjoying it right now. although i do have bon jovi, and that's pretty nice to listen to.
i'm really really really tired. i wish i could just sleep through an entire night. i don't want to do the drugs thing. i want to naturally find my peace in the night. maybe that's why my thoughts are stuck in the back. my muscles are too tired to move them forward. i know there's a whole bunch back there. i just don't know how to get to them, and once i have them, how to get them onto this blog?
i'm just randomly placing paragraphs too. did you notice that? i either don't write paragraphs, or i at least have a sense of where they go. i'm just too tired to care right now! did you ever in school write notes to your friends and write them in different shapes and scwibbles (yes i wrote scwibbles) so the person who has to read it has to turn the paper in all sorts of directions? that was lots of fun. i don't know why i started thinking of that. i want to do that to this blog, but i really doubt it will be successful. plus it would be really hard to turn the screen. unless you have one of those really cool monitors. hehe!
so i guess that's the only thing i could come up with to blog about. i shall end it now before i start to continue to type about nothing, and why nothing is the only thing to write about. sigh. have a great weekend! break a leg if you are in show!