my friend is getting married this saturday. in ohio. i can't go. i already had prior committments. kinda sucks! i'm sure it will be wonderful though! i miss out on so much out here! my other friend is getting married in december. don't know yet if i am invited. don't know if i will be able to go to that one either though! why can't people get married out here? just kidding. it would be convienient for me, but not for the majority of thier guests. oh well. i know the excitement she must be feeling right now. i kinda miss that feeling! too bad it happens only once! it's a good thing, but i'm sure there will be other excitements ahead.
i should be working on getting my workshops ready for this weekend. i'm just not motivated right now. i am going to a surprise birthday party tonight, so the rest of the evening is out of the question. i will have to get up early tomorrow to get ready if i don't start working on it now. sigh. i've been so lazy! i wonder if it has to do with how depressed i am. actually, i'm pretty sure that is why.
two of my coworkers had a little talk with me today. they were concerned about how sad i've been and they found out how i felt about the switching that went on. they tried to make me feel better. reassuring me it's not my performance. my boss does want me to succeed. if she wanted me gone, she would overload me and that would either cause her to fire me, or i quit on my own. i guess that's good to know. but i still feel like shit about the whole thing. it's not like they gave me an easy group. we have the toughest groups out of everyone. but i still don't feel better. i was actually kinda bored today! my emails subsided. my calls subsided. yeah, it will be interesting. sigh.
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