Peanut Brittle!

i always like throwing off my coworkers. when they call, sometimes i say "peanut brittle" and they start chuckling. hehe! yeah, i know i'm odd. i'm just trying to lighten my mood. still very depressed about the whole job thing. today was the official switch. i'm going to have a new backup, and she is already driving me nuts! *breathe* it is for the better, i must tell myself. it's a good thing. PEANUT BRITTLE! today is a crying day. i want to go to hawaii and get my marine biology degree. that would mean another move, and then when i would graduate, i would want to go to new england to maybe even get a masters if i'm smart enough. but i want to do marine rescue. that would be the most satisfying emotional rollar coaster i would ever be on, but i would love every single minute of it! so i don't think i am quite ready to move two more times in the next ten years. especially if there are kids by then who are in school! we'll see. i might try to do most of it on-line and then maybe only have to go to hawaii for a semester or two for the hands on, in the ocean, experience. right now, i just want to cuddle up and cry all night. but i don't want my husband to know just how down i am. yeah, i know i shouldn't keep things from him, but he knows about it, so it's not like i'm hiding it. i just hate how i look when i cry a lot. PEANUT BRITTLE! it's an ice cream night, even though it's like 8 degrees outside. it's a good thing i don't have any here! i'm way to lazy to go get it! mainly because i have to manually open the garage door because neither the garage or garage door are insulated, so the door is completely frosted and weighs too much for the motor to pull it up. it's very annoying. so i will stay in the house where it is warm, and read my book. =(